Single and Knowing Your Own Worth

Being a single person you can certainly get bombarded with clichés. There are the “supportive you’ll find someone eventually” clichés… It will happen when you least expect it, or just stop looking and they’ll find you. Then there are the other clichés, “the not so hopeful relationships are overrated” clichés, trust me you’re not missing out on anything, or it’s better because you don’t have to care. I don’t have to care? Are you kidding me? Honestly the main pit fall for single persons is that we care too much! We so desperately want to love someone and have them love us we jump heart first! The results are almost always disastrous! Falling too hard and too fast is something that is glorified in movies, books, and music, yet is completely inappropriate, and honestly horrifying for the other person in real life.

Too hard too fast!!!

I certainly know a thing or two about falling too hard and too fast. My first experience with this was probably around the age of 15, horrible age no? He was older, cooler, seemed to like me too, and was oh so cute. We talked a long while, and it seemed like he should make a move any day now and ask me out. Well he didn’t, he ignored me completely, then got himself a girlfriend (weird enough she sort of looked like me). I was crushed! I wondered what I did wrong, why didn’t he like me, and all the other things that cross a heartbroken 15 year olds mind. I eventually realized what he did was downright rude and I was much better off without him.

I wasn’t this mean…I just thought it was really funny.

Then  I was around 18 and a new guy came along…he was older, cooler, and crazy cute too. He and I talked a lot, sending messages to each other basically every other day, sharing our likes and dislikes, telling story after story, and asking question after question. I just “knew” things would work out for me this time, how could they not? He obviously liked me and we had soooo much in common! Well surprise surprise, things didn’t work out. He too gradually alienated me, no explanation, just a complete shut out. I was crushed again and couldn’t believe it! How could this be? We were so perfect for each other! Well this one took a long while to get over, ice cream and cookies were consumed, tears fell, and sad country songs were sung..horribly I might add, but I did eventually get over him. I realized it was through no fault of my own that things didn’t work out. I mean it hurt as bad as it did partly because I cared “too much”. But it wasn’t all my fault, and that felt great to know.

There have since been guys that caught my attention, as well as a bit of my heart. But obviously since I am still single it’s safe to say no relationship has worked out yet. I’m fine with it though, I really truly am! This doesn’t mean I have given up on the idea of eventually finding someone, it’s just I’m perfectly happy with my life. I don’t get anywhere near as devastated when things don’t go the way I wanted them too. Being single is not the worst thing in the world…the worst thing in the world is not knowing you own worth. I realized that’s why I had hurt so much when I was let down. I thought that it had must’ve been my fault. When in reality it wasn’t. I’m not saying that every relationship failure you have is not your fault, what I am saying though is learn from that experience, and know what you have to offer. Know your own worth, and enjoy your life to the fullest whether you’re with someone or not. I can expect to have my heartbroken a few more times because well… that’s life. But in the meantime I will be living it to the fullest, and will not be measuring my success in life by relationship status.

 What are some of the heartaches you’ve gone through? How did you get over them? Are you currently in the process of getting over someone? I would love some feedback on the topic, hearing from you guys is always a highlight of my day! Hope you all enjoyed the post, and wishing you all a very happy Monday!

Is Social Media Making Us Anti-Social?

Uh hold on a sec…I’ll start this blog in a minute I’m talking to someone.

Ok I’m back sorry 😉 What were we talking about? Oh ya, is social media making us anti-social? I mean as I sit here writing this I am practically shunning my own family, people who I could literally reach out and touch, just so I can talk to people, must of whom I will never meet.

How many times have you been out with a friend, and heard a buzz, beep, ring, or clip of a song, only to have them whip out their precious phone like an asthmatic whips out their inhaler during an attack?

I believe it was Jerry Seinfeld that said talking on your phone while with someone, was the equivalent to opening a magazine in front of their face and reading it. I must say I agree, of course I have been guilty of this (not anymore though cause I haven’t a cell phone). But I just find it so rude, I mean here I am a person who has made time in their day to specifically spend time with you, and you are going to ignore me to talk to someone who has made no more effort than it takes to pop popcorn in a microwave? Seriously do I have to push buttons in order to get your undivided attention?

Oh the wonder that is Facebook. Don’t get me wrong, I really love Facebook, it’s a great way to get more clients, talk to faraway friends, and find old friends who I had lost touch with. But I feel as though it can convenience you right out of a social life, oh well I don’t need to pick up the phone, or go see said person, I can just talk to them on Facebook. Not to mention if you live with anyone you tend to alienate them to be on the computer.

Then there is twitter and instagram, hey I know how about I tell/show everyone what I am up to right now, that way they’ll think I’m cool, and the next time I see them they wont have to even ask what I’ve been up to, cause they will have seen all of have done lately.

If I am starting to sound like an old fogey I’m sorry, I just felt like it’s something I should write about. I really do enjoy social media, I just happen to love spending real time with people more. I feel as though I should challenge myself to be more sociable, and for others to do the same. How horrible is it going to be when our children ask us what we did in our hayday, and all we can respond with is I spent a lot of time on the computer and phone? Get out go party and talk to people in front of you! You need to make friends not add them! I really hope you all enjoyed this post, and that this didn’t come across too preachy. I love you guys and wish you have a very happy Wednesday.

You Might Be An Artist If…

The fabulous comedian Jeff Foxworthy has made a whole routine about “You might be a redneck if…” Funny and ashamedly enough I have found instances where I was indeed a redneck. One of the jokes goes something like “You might be a redneck if you have several cars in your driveway but the only thing mobile is your home” this was in fact true for the first few years of my life. I have managed to accept some my Texas redneck ways, but one thing I sort of struggled with was identifying myself as an artist, I mean artists are painters, sketch artists, musicians, certain types of photographers, and writers, I am none of these. But friends and family have told me that being  the photographer that I am did indeed make me an artist. This last week I realized how much of an artist I am…No this is not me bragging on how gorgeous my latest portrait is, in fact it is me making light of the silly habits I have. So here is my spin on a classic comedy set up.

You might be an artist if…

You sometimes entertain the idea of being homeless.

No not the have to sleep in cardboard box kind of hobo, but the kind that jumps on trains and takes up odd jobs so you can travel and see the world…even if it isn’t so glamorous.

You constantly worry that you are just a hack, and anyone with half a brain could do what you.

What if I’m just not original enough???

The idea of packing it all in and getting yourself a “proper” career crosses your mind daily.

Consisent pay and benefits are quite tempting.

If you keep a notepad full of artistic ideas, but honestly it’s mostly gibberish.

What the heck did I write???

A nervous breakdown is commonplace for you.

 A little sobbing is therapeutic right?

You understand why artist are often drunks.

It’ll help my art right? I’ll drink to that.

After all the horrible insecurities manifest you realize you have unique point of view, and decide to stick it out like a beast, because nothing makes you happier than your art!

So whether you are a worldwide success or merely accomplished by your own standards, understand that you worked hard to get where you are, or that you are working to get somewhere. Know your worth and keep your head high because it’s so worth it!

I hope you all enjoyed this post, and if you have any similar feelings please feel free to share. I love feedback! Happy Friday and an equally happy weekend to you all!

Yet Another Stereotype.

I have been stereotyped a few times in my life, stereotyped about being a girl, American, Native American, and a Texan. Never had I been more stereotyped though when someone finds out I was homeschooled. If you are/were homeschooled you understand my pain, if not watch the opening scene of Mean Girls, cause yes everyone thinks you are one of those “Weirdo Homschooler Types “.

Stereotype 1. You are some sort of genius or a complete idiot. People (adults mostly) will whip out the most obscure questions and expect you to know the answer, or they look at you like “haha moron” when you dont know.

“Spell the word Antidisestablishmentarianism”. I’m sorry I didn’t take obscure words 101.

Stereotype 2. You are SUPER RELIGIOUS!

“So do you live here?” No I’m fairly certain that would be considered tresspassing.

Stereotype 3. You are an awkward nerd with zero socilization skills.

If anything not being around people my own age constantly, has made my socialization skills better. I had to actively seek out friendship, as well as socialize with people of different ages. I noticed a lot of public schoolers had trouble carrying conversation with adults, just sayin.

Stereotype 4. You go to school in your pj’s.

Not only did I not go to school in pj’s, but for the first few years of schooling I wore a uniform. Ya that’s right a uniform, I think it made things easier on my mother, getting three children under the age of 10 ready for the day is no small task.

Stereotype 5. You live an Amish lifstyle.

No I don’t! I don’t wear a dress all the time, we have electricity, I dont have a million siblings, and no we cannot build you furniture so stop asking. 😉

I hope you all enjoyed this post. If anyone has been stereotyped or believed some stereotypes like this please feel free to share, I adore feedback. Happy Saturday.

Sexy And I Know It!

There seems to be this idea floating around that if you’re a photographer then you are also excellent at modeling. In my case this could not be further from the truth. There is a reason why I am behind the camera for my profession! It’s because over half of the pictures I have taken of myself look like so…

I must have been about three when this picture was taken, as you can see I haven’t changed much in the last 17 years. I thought I might give  you guys a laugh at my own expense today 😉 Typically I only share the pretty pictures, but that’s not who I am most of the time, most of the time I am the crazy faced, snorts when she laughs, goofball in the pictures you see above. I hope you all enjoyed this post, and if you guys have any silly or embarrassing pictures you want to share please feel free. Happy Wednesday!

Oh Pinterest Why?

I have a love-hate relationship with Pinterest. I love it because basically its a giant culmination of everything I wanted, plus stuff I never knew I wanted. I hate pinterest though because I waste far too much time on it, and the main reason I hate it, is because it walks up to me all seductive and inviting… then slaps me in the face with the wet blanket that is reality *BAM*! The reality that…

Eating like this

Will not result in a body like this.

That I will never own a pair of these.

I mean yes I could save up and buy these…but $1000!!! Seriously I am the girl who manages a panic attack while spending $60. So no I don’t think I will ever own the beautiful Louboutins 😦

That my dream dress’ price matches that of a car.

Quit taunting me!

That my engagement ring will probably not look like this.

Wowza that’s gorgeous!

And the fact that I have zero patience to make something like this has not, nor will it ever change.

I made a coaster using this technique…ya only a coaster 😦

That with all the practice in the world I will still paint my nails like a drunken 4yr old.

Seriously what kind of black magic is this?

That in order to restore a beautiful automobile like this, I will have to save lots of money, and oh ya learn how to restore a car.

*drool*

That growing my hair to this length is going to take at least another 2 years.

If only.

The fact mommy will probably always detest the idea of tattoos, no matter how fabulous they are.

And lastly, finding a home in my budget that also happens to contain all of this, is about as likely as me running for president and winning!

Yes pinterest is a cruel mistress indeed. But it gives you something to strive, work, and save for…So I will probably frequent the site all the same. I hope you all enjoyed this post, and if you have any similar reality checks you have come across please feel free to share. Happy Thursday all!

Check One Off The Bucket List

Is there anything more satisfying than crossing something off a list? Honestly it doesn’t matter what kind of list, grocery, packing, honey do, but the top has to be crossing something off the ole bucket list. As some of you may know I wrote about how on my bucket list taking part in a music video was one of my goals, and how much I wanted to be in the music video Cray Button with Family Force 5. Well they reached their funding goal for the video to take place, and I was able to be apart of it. So on Sunday morning armed with directions to the warehouse where we were filming, loads of water/Gatorade, and a whole bundle of nerves I set off. I was fairly nervous because I didn’t exactly know what to expect and I wasn’t able to talk a friend into going with me, but about 15 minutes into signing in I made some friends, and the nerves went away thank goodness. The day consisted of waiting about mostly (like any film project does), dancing like a mad person, running, sweating, and oh ya more sweating! Who needs a sauna when you can party in a warehouse with no AC in the middle of a July Texas day? I think I did enough sweating and working out to last me a year, here it is Tuesday and I’m still sore.

Party People

We also did a bit of filming outside, for some crowd rafting. Let me tell you Solomon (lead vocals) is one brave man, I don’t know that I would ever hop onto a little inflatable boat a top of my fans and have them pass me back and forth. In case you are wondering no he didn’t fall…well on the ground that is.

Solomon crowd rafting!

That’s Isaac Deitz up there on the american flag drapped building. He was the videographer/director for this whole thing. My hats off to him!

The whole band of Family Force 5!

The lightboxes!

After all the filming had taken place as a thank you/wrap party the band held a concert, and let me tell you they were absolutely killin it! I have no idea how they put on such a great show considering how hard they had been working all day! But is was amazing!

His face paint did not last long, sweat will do that 😉

Just in case playing an incredible show wasn’t enough the boys stuck around to take pictures and sign things for the fans! So naturally I had to get some pics…sorry for the low quality but I was too scared to bring my Canon. :/

Me and Josh (bassist) poor guy was so tired but he was such a trooper!

Me and Jacob (drummer) this guy is such a goofball I love him!

Me and Derek (guitarist) This guy is always so polite and makes time for his fans gotta love that!

Nathan, Solomon, my lil sis, me, Jacob, Derek, and Josh after a long eventful day.

I had the best time ever and I can’t wait to see the video, they showed us a few clips of what it will look like and I know we are in for quite an incredible video! So if you ever have the opportunity to see Family Force 5 or if you’re lucky enough to be in one of their videos do so! You will have a blast. Oh and you can bet I will post Music Video once its finished and released! Happy Tuesday guys!

I Just Don’t Get It.

As most of you know “fitting in” is not one of my goals in life, I am by no means a hipster who refuses to like something just because everyone else does too, I mean if something is great more than just one person is bound to like it right? But there are a few things I just can’t get on board with and here they are.

1. Channing Tatum

I’m sorry I just don’t know why almost all my girl friends think he is so gorgeous! Does he have a good physique yes…but just about anyone who works out hard enough does too, so thats not enough reason for me to like him. The matter of fact is I just don’t find him attractive.

2. Tiney Tiny shorts *insert eye roll here*

Wow I didn’t know they made denim underwear! Why just the other night my family and I went out to dinner, and there was this girl wearing the shortest shorts I had ever seen, I kid you not about 1/4 of her backside was hanging out of her shorts! It was repulsive! I understand that its hotter than Hades but that is no excuse to run around half naked!

3. Manners are no longer practiced!

Manners are for sissies, and everyone wants to be some hardcore biker rebel. I understand how you would want to be regarded as some sort of Bad Ass cause let’s face it Tattoos, Motorcycles, and being tough are just plain cool! But you’re not being a rebel you’re being a jerk. Use some manners…afterall standing out is what rebels do, manners are memorable and stand out! 

 What are some of the more popular things you guys just can’t get on board with? I would love some feedback! I hope everyone is having a Happy Friday and will have an equally happy weekend! Lots of love!

Simple Ways To Have Clearer Skin.

Sorry guys I have seriously been slacking in my blogging duties. Summer madness, getting sick, and having a total lack of writing inspiration can seriously hinder the whole blogging process. But I am back today. And I want to share some beauty tips. If you are anything like me, your skin is shall I say…not perfect. But as of late my skin has been improving after doing a little research, and trying new products through trial and error. So I thought I might share what little wisdom I have with all of you.

Tip 1. What you put into your body matters more than what you’re putting on your skin. I have a pretty healthy diet, lean meat, a few carbs (your body needs carbs to function don’t let anyone tell you different), lots of fruit and veggies, and plenty of water. Most people after drinking more water will notice a serious improvement in their skin within a matter of only a few days. And right along with this healthy lifestyle change, working out helps reduce stress, which in turn improves your overall health, especially your skin.

Tip 2. Showers are great but can wreak havoc on your skin. Showering with too hot of water, unfiltered water, or even showering too often can severely dry your skin, dry skin actually leads to more breakouts! The reason is because your body goes into oil making overload to combat the dryness, and this causes breakout. Not only does the water affect your skin, but I have found that Shampoo can mess your face up! Whilst using a really mosturizing (non-green) shampoo I found my breakouts to be extreme. The runoff of shampoo onto your face can cause further breakout even if you wash your face afterwards. Switch to a cleaner shampoo and take warm showers. I use Honest Products Shampoo and it works wonderfully. http://www.honest.com/

Number one cause of my breakout.

Tip 3. Hidden acne dangers are closer than you think. Do you rest your face on your hands while working at your desk? I know I did. How often do you wash your pillowcase? As often as you wash your face? Do you clean that cell phone off? These are all things I never really paid much attention to, but after being diligent about cleaning where I lay my face, and not resting my face on my hands, I noticed some serious improvement.

Wash those pillow cases.

Tip 4. Honey is not just for your tea. After washing my face with my face soap (Hugo brand in Calendula) I spread honey all over my face, and leave it on for 15 minutes, then I rinse it off with cool water. Honey is good for your skin for a multitude of reasons, but some of the main reasons is that is full of good bacteria, is anti-inflammatory, and promotes skin cell production. All of this leads to a clearer complexion and an improvement in skin texture. I also noticed it seems to be lightening some dark spots caused by bad acne on me. so hooray!

Tip 5. You need to exfoliate, but not all the time. I exfoliate more or less once a week. I use a simple wash cloth and soap, baking soda and water, or sugar and olive oil. All of these work quite well. It’s whatever your preference is.

Tip 6. You need to moisturize. I use 100% grape seed oil, and just love it, it only takes three drops for my whole face how great is that? Keeping your face moisturized will prevent dry skin that can trap oil underneath it and cause more breakout. So slather up buttercup 😉

You can also use olive oil if you like. I prefer grape seed cause it absorbs faster and has less of a scent.

Tip 7. You need some sunshine. In the day of spf one million and constant preaching of stay out of the sun cause you will get cancer and die, its sometimes debatable if you should go into the sun or not. Well every Doctor worth their salt will tell you that you need at least 20 minutes of unprotected sunlight during low uv index hours a day. Not only does the sun seem to improve acne, it helps you absorb vitamin D, and just honestly lifts your spirits. Of course you need to be careful with your sun exposure, but do not turn into a vampire please.

This guy is clearly not getting enough vitamin D.

I hope you all found this post to be helpful and amusing. If you have any skin care tips you would like to share feel free. If any of these tips work for you too please let me know, I love other success stories! And as always I love you guys and happy Wednesday!

Let’s Keep Talking About Stereotypes.

So I did a post on Native American stereotypes that I have had to put up with, since I am Tsalagi. But another Stereotype I have had to put up with my entire life is stereotypes against…Texans. Quick what image just popped into your mind when I said Texans? Was it something along these lines?

Stereotype 1. Do you own a horse?

Not only do I not own a horse (homeowners association would not appreciate that) I have never owned a horse. Sure I lived next door to people who owned horses back when I lived in the sticks, but most Texans I know are more likely to own a dog not a horse.

Stereotype 2. You are gun crazy!

Well we do have the right to bear arms so… pretty much ya.

Stereotype 3. You are all cowboys.

Seriously? No! If I want to see some cowboys I am going to have to drive a good hour or two to find one. For every one real cowboy I could probably find several hundred business men.

Stereotype 4. Well you may not all be cowboys but you all dress like one.

Honestly I just got my first pair of cowboy boots last summer. So you can pretty much guess most of us don’t dress like it’s still the 1800’s. Of course if I go to Ft Worth I would be hard pressed to find someone who wasn’t wearing cowboy attire. Honestly its more of a regional thing.

Stereotype 5. We have an over the top pride for our state.

Why yes, yes we do. I know several people from all over the US and I have yet to find one who loves their state more than we Texans.

Stereotype 6. You all love country music.

This could not be more wrong! I mean I like country music but most of my family hates it. One time country music was playing quietly in the grocery store and mom said “what is that noise?” not knowing that it was music. So no not all of us enjoy country.

Stereotype 7. You all drive trucks!

Do we drive more trucks than most of the world? Probably. But with gas prices being what they are a lot of us are driving sedans. On a side note this is kind of my dream car.

Stereotype 8. You are tough.

Well this is partly true, some of the toughest people I know are Texans, but then again I’m a Texan so we’re not all tough. 😉

Stereotype 9. We love George W. Bush

Yes. But it’s more like some of us love him and some of us love to hate him. But enough about that, mommy told me to never talk politics.

Stereotype 10. You all want to secede the union.

We all joke about it, and even entertain the idea of it, but honestly having to have a passport to visit anywhere else in the US seems a little ridiculous…But you never know 😉

If you want more humor about stereotypes be sure to Check my friend’s video out. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WTGLEuuPGpg

As always I hope you guys enjoyed this post. And if you guys have stories of stereotypes you have had or had people believe about you feel free to share. Happy Monday!